The future, the future is a scary thing to think about when all you have been thinking about is getting done with school and walking away with your Bachelors. I feel that all I have ever known is school; I have experienced life through the pages of texts books. Please don’t misconstrue what I am saying I love to learn, if I could I would have a degree in Art, Music, Writing, Theater, ASL, Culinary Arts, and the list goes on. I love to learn, I love to feel like a Jack of All Trades. But, I have worked so hard on school worrying about grades and GPAs, that I feel that my passions have gone from, a passion to a forced expedition. I stopped writing for me and did it so I would get the best grade. The future for me has always been the next step in school and now that the end is in sight I feel like life is in slow motion and I am stuck in quick sand. I can’t go back, but I don’t know how to go forward. It sounds silly I know, but I have always been a little dramatic (which works because my AA is in theater). I think before I decide my future I want to experience everything that I saw others experience in the books I read. I want to know I can live the true life I want. No Regrets is the one thing I promised my Grandfather before he passed and that is a promise I plan to keep.
I went to work for Future for Kids because it was something out of my element. I am the creative free thinker who would love to be up all night and sleep all day. I swore I would never work in an office with cubicles, but when I got to Future for Kids I realized that it wasn’t about the office. No it was about the work we are doing for the kids, and I can gladly be up during the day in an office building know that I am doing something that changes lives. Today I got to meet some of those kids and I feel like after one day they have my heart. To see kids having fun, smiles showing in their eyes, it was the most gratifying experience to realize that I am a part of putting that smile in their hearts. It sounds funny, but the greatest thing I hope to accomplish is to spread true smiles and joy. I grew up the odd one out my whole life, all I ever wanted was to feel like I mattered, and when I was with those kids today I felt like finally I was doing something that truly mattered.
When people ask me what I want to do with my future I pause, not because I don’t fully know what I want to do, but because I see so many things I wish I could do I just don’t know how to get there yet. I tell people when they ask me that question two things, I tell them what I would want if life was a perfect world and what I hope to do with the life I have in front of me. My perfect world is a big idea that maybe I will never achieve, but when I stop dreaming is the day I will turn my world upside down just to find away to dream again. Dreams give you goals, goals give you hope, and hope fuels the passion in your soul. Everyone has a dream and it’s never too big as long as it’s what you want. Learn from your past, enjoy the present, and have faith in the future. Never regret where you have been it’s what made you who you are and that is the greatest thing in the world.
I don’t know what my future holds, but I do know that I am enjoying the here and now. I am glad I chose to work at Future for Kids I think this will be a great experience that I will take with me for the rest of my life. Always remember there are no mistakes only lessons to be learned.
Rachel,
ReplyDeleteYour internship at Future for Kids sounds like it has already shown you some interesting things about yourself! You mentioned that you never pictured yourself working in an office/cubicle environment but you have seen a different side to this. Instead of hating your work area you were able to identify with something more positive about your surroundings such as being with the kids. I love your attitude it is very uplifting and inspiring! It is no wonder as to how you have come to be a well rounded young individual with a good head on your shoulders. I think that working with kids is perfect for you! You have a lot to share with the world, especially with the most influential group of persons; kids. Don't worry about not knowing exactly what you want to do with your career. That is what this internship is all about, getting your hands wet and testing new waters. I wish you the best of luck with the rest of your semester!